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Aug. 7th, 2001 02:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rootofnewtSo the hives that came to a head Monday morning were an allergic reaction to hydrocodone.
I'm back to life without painkillers, sleep, or relief... And I'm at the end of my rope.
I hadn't realized how tenuous my grasp on sanity was. I didn't realize how close to the edge I'd come. My pain management cost me my career, my social life, and my housework... Now I don't have any of it, nor do I see how I'll cope for the next month until the neurologist can see me. And I don't have any guarantees that he'll be able to help me.
This is not something I can handle. My doctor is afraid to prescribe anything else because of my allergies. There are still a couple families of painkillers I haven't been exposed to, so why the hell can't I try them now? She should know that something was up when I actually ASKED for painkillers. I avoid them at all costs.
It's not like me to sit and cry, but I have a feeling that's what I'll be doing. It's all I have left to do.
I'm back to life without painkillers, sleep, or relief... And I'm at the end of my rope.
I hadn't realized how tenuous my grasp on sanity was. I didn't realize how close to the edge I'd come. My pain management cost me my career, my social life, and my housework... Now I don't have any of it, nor do I see how I'll cope for the next month until the neurologist can see me. And I don't have any guarantees that he'll be able to help me.
This is not something I can handle. My doctor is afraid to prescribe anything else because of my allergies. There are still a couple families of painkillers I haven't been exposed to, so why the hell can't I try them now? She should know that something was up when I actually ASKED for painkillers. I avoid them at all costs.
It's not like me to sit and cry, but I have a feeling that's what I'll be doing. It's all I have left to do.
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<old man> i got better! </old man>
Date: 2001-08-07 09:46 pm (UTC)i take melantonin for sleep. this is what helps me manage the fibro... good sleep. unfortunately, nerve pain pushes through that and wakes me up. :/
heat works on my neck, but falling asleep with the heating pad on is a no-no. and nothing helps for my feet, though massage calms me a bit. trust me, i hit boy up for all the massages he can handle. after this, he'll either love feet or hate 'em. ;)
and the cancellation list won't do any good. he's going on vacation (very common in DC around august--it's horrid around here weather-wise). so i just have to wait. i'll call my doctor again tomorrow and harass her, though. if she doesn't pull through, i'll have to go find my own darn crack. ;)