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[rootofnewt]

So the hives that came to a head Monday morning were an allergic reaction to hydrocodone.

I'm back to life without painkillers, sleep, or relief... And I'm at the end of my rope.

I hadn't realized how tenuous my grasp on sanity was. I didn't realize how close to the edge I'd come. My pain management cost me my career, my social life, and my housework... Now I don't have any of it, nor do I see how I'll cope for the next month until the neurologist can see me. And I don't have any guarantees that he'll be able to help me.

This is not something I can handle. My doctor is afraid to prescribe anything else because of my allergies. There are still a couple families of painkillers I haven't been exposed to, so why the hell can't I try them now? She should know that something was up when I actually ASKED for painkillers. I avoid them at all costs.

It's not like me to sit and cry, but I have a feeling that's what I'll be doing. It's all I have left to do.

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Poor Yggy!!

[jkatj.livejournal.com]

You poor thing. How awful that you're in so much pain and taking the meds is worse than just trying to suffer through. :( And it's so typical of our medical system that you can't see the neurologist for a month. Ugh ugh ugh.

I wish I were there to sit and cry with you. It wouldn't help any, but at least you'd be with a supportive friend, right?

{{{{{{ygg}}}}}}

i'm better now

[krasota.livejournal.com]

thanks. :) i appreciate your thoughts. you can come over and cry anytime, but i have a feeling having two people sobbing on my couch would lead to sputtering giggles.

*hugs*

Re: i'm better now

[ex-imagine-t263.livejournal.com]

Sputtering giggles are fun. :)

I hope you're feeling better!

*HUGS*

Jessi

Here's Hope

[laverick.livejournal.com]

ygg,
I'm so sorry to hear about all the pain you're in! I can very much empathize with how you're feeling from all the losses I've had to cope with also.

Does heat or ice or gentle massage or anything like that help you? Can you take something herbal like kava kava to help you relax and sleep? :(

Make sure you get yourself on the neurologist's cancellation list--that's how i got in "early" to many of my doctors.

I'll be praying that you'll soon have relief to get through these days.

(((ygg))))

~Silver

<old man> i got better! </old man>

[krasota.livejournal.com]

thanks, silver. *hugs*

i take melantonin for sleep. this is what helps me manage the fibro... good sleep. unfortunately, nerve pain pushes through that and wakes me up. :/

heat works on my neck, but falling asleep with the heating pad on is a no-no. and nothing helps for my feet, though massage calms me a bit. trust me, i hit boy up for all the massages he can handle. after this, he'll either love feet or hate 'em. ;)

and the cancellation list won't do any good. he's going on vacation (very common in DC around august--it's horrid around here weather-wise). so i just have to wait. i'll call my doctor again tomorrow and harass her, though. if she doesn't pull through, i'll have to go find my own darn crack. ;)