tired

my brain is slow again.

i'm being naughty and blaming the drugs. before the neurontin, my latin was super easy. after, i had to re-read a few times...

now... i notice a marked difference. just a few days on clonazepam and i can't speak words in english.

i pointed at a word in the text: book.

i kept repeating "kniga, knigu" at tom, asking him for the latin (liber) accusative (librum, i think)... of course, he had no clue. so finally, i pointed at the word in the text and told him, "i can't say this in english. in russian, it's kniga. i'm sorry.

this scares me. it's like when i first got sick and it's like when the docs started messing with my head and putting me on different ADs. i'm trying to tell myself that i'm just tired. after all, i DO switch between french, english, and russian without realizing it when i get tired... but i can USUALLY switch back into english if i'm looking at words on a page.

i slept poorly last night. tossed and turned. and i've had a SORE neck all day long... couldn't turn my head to the right.

if i'd realized BEFORE 11pm that alleve might have helped, i'd be a lot happier.

i have just a few more sentences of my latin homework... so close... yet so tired. and i need to take my clonazepam, which will make me tired.

ah, well. just a few minutes and i'll have the latin done... i hope. it's taken me several hours... used to take me less than half of one.

and to think... i'm studying latin to KEEP my brain from decaying from inactivity.