tired

[rootofnewt]

my brain is slow again.

i'm being naughty and blaming the drugs. before the neurontin, my latin was super easy. after, i had to re-read a few times...

now... i notice a marked difference. just a few days on clonazepam and i can't speak words in english.

i pointed at a word in the text: book.

i kept repeating "kniga, knigu" at tom, asking him for the latin (liber) accusative (librum, i think)... of course, he had no clue. so finally, i pointed at the word in the text and told him, "i can't say this in english. in russian, it's kniga. i'm sorry.

this scares me. it's like when i first got sick and it's like when the docs started messing with my head and putting me on different ADs. i'm trying to tell myself that i'm just tired. after all, i DO switch between french, english, and russian without realizing it when i get tired... but i can USUALLY switch back into english if i'm looking at words on a page.

i slept poorly last night. tossed and turned. and i've had a SORE neck all day long... couldn't turn my head to the right.

if i'd realized BEFORE 11pm that alleve might have helped, i'd be a lot happier.

i have just a few more sentences of my latin homework... so close... yet so tired. and i need to take my clonazepam, which will make me tired.

ah, well. just a few minutes and i'll have the latin done... i hope. it's taken me several hours... used to take me less than half of one.

and to think... i'm studying latin to KEEP my brain from decaying from inactivity.

Comments

[marea93.livejournal.com]

Geez, I guess I didn't really grok that you're in school.

I wouldn't worry too much about your difficulty finding the right words sometimes, less fluidity between languages, etc. It's aggravating as hell but part of the glorious package that comes with chronic pain syndromes. I sometimes notice it as one of the first signals a slammer migraine is about to hit, and on bad days I can see how hard everyone is trying to be patient with me as I struggle to articulate. Reading back over stuff I have written on bad days I usually find that I have left out words and other strange things.

Watched 'Life of Brian' this eve with the semi-neph, who had never seen it. Laughed so hard when the Roman guard bullies Brian into conjugating his his verbs properly, then makes him rewrite his graffiti 100 times.

Hugs, doll

[krasota.livejournal.com]

i'm not really in school. i'm in a paced group self-study of latin. we have a list (populated by other latin speakers/students/translators) for discussion and we all turn in assignments which are collated for comparison. the moderator *will* say something if the group is way off on something. :)

it's fun. and i know that verban difficulties and cognitive difficulties are part of chronic pain... thing is, my brain fog isn't usually THIS bad. normally, going over my latin hw, i have to transpose words, re-spell things (not backwards, not written in cyrillic script), and other things... but i can also tell different levels of brain fog and medication-induced is always the worst. i got LOST driving the other day... totally did not recognize the beltway... after a couple miles, i saw where i was. i was five min from my destination, so i let boy drive the rest of the way when i got to him.

[stmaybe.livejournal.com]

ack - i hate that! when i started my new ad meds in early december i got lost on the bus going to work. somehow i got confused & was sure i'd gotten on the wrong bus. so i got off & waited for the next one, which was of course the wrong bus as the right bus had just driven away. :P

argh

[jkatj.livejournal.com]

The brain fog sucks bigtime. I'm suffering through that, too. Only I don't have a medicine to blame it on. :P I think my quality of work diminishes a little every day. Although, it prob'ly doesn't help that I don't even like my job anymore.

Anyway, I hope you adapt soon so you can remember words in your first language. ;)

[absinthea.livejournal.com]

Sweetheart, sometimes I still blank on the English word and can only think of the French, Italian or Tagalog word for something. Granted, the last major episode I had with that was while heavily doped on versed.
It still happens sporadically though.