do i get multiple takes in this life?

[rootofnewt]

i'm so sick of this.

saw the cardiac surgeon today. she thinks that the cyst is bronchogenic or bronchoenteric, not pericardial. she thinks the pericardial effusion was just a coincidence. the cyst is still there, but (very) slightly smaller. not sure what to think.

my doctor talked to both the surgeon and the pulmonologist in the last 24 hours and they all decided i need to be evaluated by a thoracic surgeon.

meanwhile, i'm sitting here amidst all this talk of needling the cyst, biopsies, bronchoscopies, surgery... and i'm thinking, "whoa... could we look at less invasive ways of examining exactly where this cyst is... say... a thoracic MRI?"

i just prefer to use the less intrusive means before i have needles stuck into tender areas. the thought of a needle being stuck THROUGH my trachea (from the inside) into the cyst really squicks me. and i really don't want the more invasive means of biopsying the cyst... not yet, anyway. they don't even know WHAT the damn thing is attached to... why go in only to find that it CANNOT be removed b/c it's connected to too many things?

needle. trachea.

ew. ew ew ew

i'm not in pain anymore, i just have a constant "pill stuck in throat" feeling.

gah.

Comments

[krasota.livejournal.com]

well, i've backed out of two other procedures over the last five-six years... i wasn't feeling too well for the first (butt cam, as i so fondly call it), so it's sorta understandable. and i was discharged from the hospital the day before the second (skin punch small fiber nerve biopsy) and wasn't able to drive myself up to johns hopkins... and i didn't WANT to drive myself. ;)

bronchoscopy/needles... eeesh. i might be not making an appt for that one. ew.

[elnigma.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry you are having to go through all this, that really sucks.