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[rootofnewt]

There's a Lisa Marie Presley video on VH1 right now.

I've had trouble sleeping lately. I'm flaring and crashing, too. Achy, tired, and I've had a headache for nearly two weeks.

The headache isn't jaw or sinus related and it's not a migraine, but it's not pleasant. Naproxen kill it for a few hours, but I'm nearly out of naproxen and we're snowed in. We can't leave til someone comes over from the farm and plows the driveway. They won't do that until it stops snowing. And even then, they might not do it until we ask. The headache's ALMOST enough to convince me to walk the two miles to VA6 and hitch a ride into Scottsville so I can visit the pharmacy. Almost... but it would take too much energy and I don't think I can walk to the end of my driveway, much less two miles in the snow.

The brain fog is getting worse. This is one of the worst parts of being sick. I could almost accept having a body that never stops hurting if I could just have my mind back. I keep forgetting things and wandering about the house aimlessly, when I'm not curled up on the couch or the bed. Reading is difficult, as is watching tv. Boy has done a lot of cooking and dishes these last few days. I'm quite thankful for that. I'm too dizzy to stay standing most of the time.

Boy says that, despite my claims, winter really does make me more ill. I haven't pointed out that the days are getting longer. It's sunlight, I tell you! Sunlight is EEEEVIL!

I'm going to go bury myself under the covers now.

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Brain fog

[azhure.livejournal.com]

I'm with you on that - I can handle about anything except for brain fog. If someone manages to cure just that I'll be happy...

[red-frog.livejournal.com]

I was having a very bad brain fog day myself yesterday. :P

At least the snow's stopped and we're not supposed to get any more, and you'll be in town soon. And ASK to get the drive cleared--you're ill and need to get your medicine.

[chorus-of-chaos.livejournal.com]

braaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnn fooooooggggggggggggg. yep. I stunned my therapist yesterday by borrowing her pen and writing my next appointment in three different places on one of my arms. One or two might wear off before I actually get near a calender with a pen in hand. appointment card? I'll lose that before I get out of the building.

Sometimes they just don't realize how bad it is. I'd rather have alzheimers...at least at one point you get to forget that you forget stuff. (if that made any sense.)

I'm aching, I'm cold as hell (It's all of 1 degree here right now) I'm feeling worthless and useless and like the biggest waste of air and living tissue there is. I'm bored. I'm lonely. I want to die. I know it will all pass but damn, this is the prevailing way I feel anymore, and I'm getting very tired of it. It's no way to live, and no matter who I beg and plead to for help, I just get ignored. The doctor won't provide good pain management. (I go in and tell him I have fibro. He gives me DARVOCET -when I was taking Talwin NX- and only gives me 50 pills per refill. My husband goes in complaining of chronic headaches. He is given 200 darvocet per refill. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT????????)Counseling here isn't sure what to do with me, they are used to handling addicts and basic depressive issues, though thank god, I have a counselor who I feel like is really trying to understand me and help me figure out some of this crap I go through in my head.

Sigh...sorry to unload in your comments, but I imagine you have sometimes have days a little like this too. Maybe you don't babble like I do....Isolation is taking it's toll on me.

You might call the local pharmacy and find out of they will deliver meds. Some do, alot of them did back in Indianapolis but I don't know what they will say where you are. I hope you get them soon, heachaches like that are so annoying.

Comic relief time!

[datagoddess.livejournal.com]

It's sunlight, I tell you! Sunlight is EEEEVIL!

Yeah, I could tell you're a vampire. One who looks fab in a corset, but still a vampire ;-)

[mactavish.livejournal.com]

Argh, how frustrating. :/ I wish I could swap your car for a big Caterpillar bulldozer. :/

Now we sing!

[krasota.livejournal.com]

If I had a bulldozer, everything would be so fine! I would never have to move it over, never have to stand in line. --Heywood Banks, If I had a Bulldozer from the album Treated and Released.

When I move into town and have broadband, I shall rip that for you. You would like it, I think.

Alvin Straight

[anisoptera.livejournal.com]

I wish I could take a page from his book and drive my garden tractor with snowblower attachment to MD and plow out your driveway.

[jkatj.livejournal.com]

My fibro is all kinds of angry these days, too. And I'm battling a headache most of the time. I hope it's just a winter thing because I don't know how long I could go on like this.

I hope things ease up for you soon. And that your drive gets plowed so you can get into town.

[sabethea.livejournal.com]

*hug*

i HATE brain fog. when it hits me, i can't think, can't make decisions and if jay says something like "which direction shall we go in?" i burst into tears (NOT normal...)

but doesn't it make you relieved that you're intelligent? because i hate the thought of that being all i ever experience.

[bandhiaduit.livejournal.com]

(((hugs)))

Brain fog bad.
Warm blankies good.
Sleep good.

Feel better.

[stmaybe.livejournal.com]

i can fedex you some naproxen? think the fedex man could make it through the snow?

[krasota.livejournal.com]

I nearly FedEx'd myself some from drugstore.com that night. ;) I still had some, though. And yesterday, the snow melted enough from 11-4 that we could escape the driveway and go into town, where I bought a big new bottle.

Thanks, though. :)