i'm awake at *what* hour?

it's 4:45am. i awoke about half an hour ago. i finally dragged myself out of bed at 4:30.

i'm exhausted. four hours of sleep is not enough. i'm tempted to take another melatonin, but then i'll be *really* groggy.

it's comfy in the bedroom. it's the perfect temperature (air, pillow, bed wise). boy is all cuddly, but not too cuddly. and i can't sleep.

it's even raining out, which lulls me. i emptied my bladder, stretched a little... and still i cannot sleep.

i have vague menstrual cramps, but they aren't sufficiently horrid to warrant keeping me awake. i'm cuddling up with a nice cuppa wellness for women tea, which usually quiets cramps, so that might help.

and since i'm near my period, it's no-caffeine time. caffeine + tender menstrual breasts = evil, raging, screaming breasts. that means today will probably be very dozy, achy, and tearful if i don't get to back to sleep. and that's being hopeful.

my back is killing me, but i sleep with an aching back/neck/shoulders every single night. that shouldn't affect me right now.

*sigh*

drink my tea, brush my teeth, go back to bed... and maybe i will pop a melatonin. i need sleep now more than a coherent day later.

if i take enough quizzes, i might fall asleep...

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okay, i'm awake again...

ugh. fell asleep from 6:30ish til 12:30ish... had another pee break... slept for another hour.

now i feel all out of sorts.... over 12 hours of assorted sleep. ugh.

and i desperately want a coke. i wish i had some caffeine-free stuff in the house. guess i'll have to go out and grab some...

except... i'm going to be visiting kenn, so i'll *need* caffeine to fend off allergy/asthma misery (this is in addition to the doctor-prescribed meds, mind you) when confronted with his evil feline.

i should probably shower and get over to his side of town before rush hour gets horrendous today. i can hang out at the crystal fox in laurel or at ann arundel mills for a couple hours... but i don't want to. that whole sleep/nosleep fiasco has made me a bitter woman.

and my beloved husband is convinced that i'm tormenting him for the "whole fiji mermaid thing". now, why he thinks he's a fiji mermaid is *his* business. i'm just not going there.