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i blame mary for posting the link to THIS one.

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a little odd

i've been laughing a lot lately. giggling, chuckling, chortling... all of it. and i mean *a lot*. i used to be a very giggling, happy person, but this makes me feel like a gawky teen again... all slap happy and punchy. all the time.

i can't figure it out. i've also caught myself smiling when i'm just sitting. now, that's not anything *new* to *me*, but it's new to me with fibro/cfids. smiling just isn't an automatic thing when one is exhausted and in pain. it doesn't bother me, it's just that i'm sitting here smiling when the only possible way to make me even remotely happy at the moment would be to chop off my feet.

yet, i'm doing smiling and giggling.

part of me suspects the neurontin.

part of me thinks i've just gone loony.

"gone loony" as if i wasn't already a lily pad short of a frog orgy.

i don't know. the smiley giggly bit has gotten far more obvious over the last few days... coincidentally, i'm gradually tripling my neurontin dosage (up to 600-600-900 at the moment, going up to 900-900-900).

i know that "strange feelings" were listed on the possible adverse effects, but i was expecting something more like thinking i was the venutian incarnation of elvis' rocking chair. sure, euphoria is listed, but i don't feel euphoric. i'm just slap-happy.

bah. i need to remember to ask the pharmacist or doctor about the listing of herpes simplex under the infrequent dermatologic side effects. in the last three months, i've had to be almost religious about taking my l-lysine supplements. if i miss *one* dose, i break out in cold sores and herpes sores on my lips, fingers, and chest. not pleasant. i've been on the neurontin since august. i hate investigating these side effects... makes me feel like a hypochondriac.

i'd just like to stop laughing hysterically. on the other hand, maybe it's not out of hand... maybe it's just been a long time since i've been my normal, uberperky self. i just don't think this *is* my uberperkiness... if it were, i'd be happy and exuberant INSIDE, too. as it is, i'm plotting fotocide.