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i'm not sure if i'm having asthma issues or if it's more of an inflammatory thing that's in the tissue around my lungs and ribs. it hurts to breathe and i keep coughing because i'm not breathing deeply... but it might just be the fibro. my doctors don't think i have costochondritis, since i don't tend to suffer from hypermobility of any joints. i do get rib inflammation from time to time, just not this badly... it's like an iron vise being tightening around my upper torso. i'll survive, it's just painful.

i'm taking today very easy. i should probably take tomorrow easy, too, but i want to see Hoven Droven and it's *free*, dammit. i'll go and enjoy the show.

last night, the pain was really bad and i got pretty short with boy. i'm sorry about that, but at the same time, it would have been nice if he'd helped me out a little--just getting my damn toothbrush out would have been a help and would have been no effort on his part, since my toothbrush was packed in the exact same spot as his toothbrush.

he's just gone to get me a soda. i'm trying caffeine in case the pain *is* my asthma. my asthma is fairly mild, generally. i have the feeling of a very heavy weight on my chest when it's bothering me and i get a bit lightheaded because breathing becomes an effort. it's nothing like my little brother's dangerous textbook case, but it's still something i have to keep an eye on, which is why i'm on accolate (which works very well against the cat allergy trigger for my asthma).

he's a good boy. he's not felt well lately, either. he does try. and i love him.